Most of you who know me now would not recogonize the me of 20 years ago, well, you might look twice and think you know me. But truth is, I was very different back then and by back then I mean before kids.
HoneyBee will be the first in line to raise his hand and say when that first boy popped out there went his wife. He has been bravely hanging on hoping that she some day returns to him. In the meantime he has had to cope with this crazed woman trying to figure it all out live, with no commercials.
But, to be fair HoneyBee and I have both changed and that has been the topic of conversation lately because we think somewhere along the line we might have compromised a few core beliefs. Oh, don’t worry we didn’t believe in things that were too wacked out. But we did have some basic things we said we would do and we are not doing them.
Now, don’t get excited you will never get the juicy marriage dirt on this site – and honestly, there’s not too much of it anyway. However, there has been a blip on our radar of “did we make the right choice?” with regard to SmartBee. And that’s why you have not seen me too much on here lately.
This is our life…
6am – Rise and Shine
8am – BusyBee to School
8:40 – SmartBee to School
Then I have the day to get school stuff done so I can start accepting students.
3 pm BusyBee Home & Homework
4:30 SmartBee Home
5pm Start SmartBee’s Homework
9pm – If we are lucky SmartBee is done and we can go to bed.
That’s part of the situation. The other is that SmartBee seems to be turning off in school, the teachers “never seem to have his attention.” Although, I can’t say I blame him much when all he is doing is school stuff.
So, we are at a fork in the road. We have been having lots of heart-to-hearts about what to do. SmartBee is coming home, frustrated, in tears because “he just can’t get it together.”
In the past he has been able to have teachers that guided him, that spent more than 45 minutes with him, that go to know him, that got to see him in his all his glory good and bad. They were more able to see the whole picture. Now, it’s about a 45 minute first impression that has him wishing he could just have a repeat pass because he is floundering.
To be fair, I don’t expect the teachers to hold his hand, I don’t expect them to stand over him and force him to do his work. They have other students. I do expect respect and courtesy. And, I do expect that his accomodations are met.
There is so much on both side to this whole situation. To get into the nitty gritty would take forever and would either bore you to death or make you cry.
So, this is where we are at…we are waiting for the first report card. We are waiting because if SmartBee can’t pull it together we might pull him and homeschool him. There! I said it outloud. I can’t believe I said it but I did. And, it really is something we are thinking seriously about.
HoneyBee and I have always been homeschool supporters. We did not think it was the best for our kids because we wanted them to have a combination of the two. We knew that they would always need extra help and what better way to do that then to put them in school and then be there at home to help. The best of both worlds.
Problem is, the two worlds don’t really play well together…so we are at the crossroad…
I will keep you posted…
See you dysing around!
Rebecca